See you soon!

Hello you gorgeous people.

Firstly, I just want to say that if you’ve followed me and my content, thank you so much. I know the numbers aren’t huge, but every message of support that I have ever received, every view and every person that I’ve helped has been the only thing that has kept me going when I have felt hopeless.

Because of this blog, I’ve had some really intimate and special conversations where thoughts and feelings have been shared with people that I probably would never have spoken to before. And I never forget those things. I remember every single person that has been in contact, and I am always wishing you the best.

Also, to those of you who have silently viewed my videos and read my writing, you matter too. Thank you for being consistent and supporting from afar.

And let’s be honest, the only reason I got into a relationship was because I received a message about this blog. And then it ended and shattered me into a million pieces. It’s all so beautifully bitter sweet.

So basically.. for a long time, my content has been coming from a dark and lonely place and I think my relationship breakdown has just pushed me over the edge. I’ve been clinging onto the blog to help pull me through, but it’s not working anymore. I want to keep it real and I want to be true to myself and to you all. Never alone blog is my passion, my creative outlet and my best friend. And I don’t want to say goodbye to it. However, I need to take some time out for a while so I can come back with stronger content that can help you fully.

I don’t know how long the break is going to be, or if i’m going to completely revamp the blog when I get back. But it’s time to fix myself once and for all. Maybe, i’ll get round to finishing the book that i’ve been meaning to write in the mean time! But please keep following the page though, because I promise you that I’ll be back at some point.

I would love to leave you with a never alone sweatshirt. I may also try to sell some other never alone designs on my Facebook page. I just won’t be posting content for a while. This is the sweatshirt and i’m selling for £20. if you want one, just message me.

So yeah.

I will be stronger. I will be better for you and I will always be here to remind you that you are never alone.

But for now, self care is needed.

See you soon!



this never ending mountain that i’m climbing is defeating me.

my eyes are bleeding

my legs are weak 

my blood is cold

and the excruciating pain running through my body

makes me want to jump off

just let go 

and hit the ground 



i cant hold on much longer

i don’t want to do this anymore

my mind aches

it hurts and i’m tired

i just want to jump



no one can save me

they don’t even know where i am

and they don’t care

Thought of the week

Pain is inevitable.

We try to escape being in any painful situation, whether it be physically or mentally, because we just don’t know how to cope with it. We will do anything to fight the feeling of being hurt because we are fearful of what it might do to us. Which is normal. Our animalistic instinct is to protect ourselves (that’s what keeps us alive).

Unfortunately, we’re all on an impossible quest to avoid the inevitable.

It’s going to happen sometimes. Whether we like it or not, we are going to feel pain. The more we try to run away from it, the harder it will hit us and the scarier it seems. The more fear we generate from toxic situations, the more the devil wins.

Through these dark dark times that you experience, use love to keep you brave. Use love to remind you that no matter what happens, light always comes out on top. Yes, pain will come and it will try to tear you down. But face it with a brave face and don’t let it win. The devil will not win. No matter what the circumstance, there is always something better beyond.

5 ways to believe in yourself

Acknowledge the good and bad things about yourself to improve. 

We are so quick to notice all of the traits that we don’t like about ourselves, but never the good. It’s important to give yourself a pat on the back from time to time. Mental strength comes from determination that you will fight off negative thoughts, no matter how hard it might seem to do. Don’t keep telling yourself that you’re shit!

Confidence & self growth and progression comes from believing that you can achieve things. So, start applauding yourself and complimenting yourself when you deserve it. Turn that voice down in your mind that tells you everything about you is rubbish. Start thinking: What makes you a good person? What do you like about yourself? What do other people compliment you on? What makes you feel confident? How can I improve by using my positives to help me with my weaknesses?

Use criticism/pain in your life to make you stronger, not weaker. 

Life can be unfair sometimes. Whether it’s people trying to bring you down, or unpredictable situations that cause pain that you just don’t know how to move forward from. Circumstances can affect our confidence when we feel vulnerable or hurt. Don’t take the memories that haunt you and let them consume you negatively. Use them to make you become stronger, and be confident in the idea of believing in yourself and capability. Use your pain in a focused way to drive you to success. Pain can either destroy you or help you grow. You get to make that choice. 

Surround yourself with motivational energy (music, videos, books, television, people).

Positive energy + positive thoughts = positive attraction. The more positivity you surround yourself with, the brighter you will feel in general. Watching motivational videos/films, listening to upbeat music, reading motivational books and so on, will give you boosts throughout the day to remain hopeful in life and therefore, slightly more hopeful with your own abilities. Also, If there are people around you that are supporting you and reminding you that you can do something, you will start to believe in it and yourself a little bit more. Place yourself in the middle of a supportive ‘I can do this’ circle. But remember that you don’t NEED other people. You can do it alone, with a good mindset and determination to feel confident. 

Create a routine that you stick to. 

To believe in yourself, prove to yourself that you can do something that you set your mind to. Create a structure that will help you with your confidence- and stick to it! For example, go to the gym on your set days. Do your studies or work when you are supposed to. Eat healthy foods that you have planned for the week. Create some goals and just do it! Show yourself that even if you have fallbacks, you can still get back up and make yourself proud. Routine is good for the mindset. The more you surprise yourself by delivering results, the more belief you will gain in yourself. 

Don’t crumble when times get tough. 

You might have some bad days that you feel you can’t get back from. Your thoughts might haunt you and whisper to you that you’re not good enough and you can’t do something. But the most important thing is to keep fighting every single day. Keep getting back up, brushing yourself down and trying again. Because as long as you are trying as hard as you possibly can, you should be proud of yourself. And the belief is always deep within you, remember that.


another panic attack

another day of fighting the demons alone


my heart breaks a little bit more each time

that i think of a life without you.



i lie in bed with tears streaming down my eyes

whilst my heart bleeds and calls out your name

but i get no answer,

and even if i did

then i wouldn’t reply


i wouldn’t know what to say to the pain in your bloodshot eyes.



i hate that i love to need you 

and my body aches



my soul pleads

to forget this war of us against the world.



we have finally put down our weapons

and stopped trying to heal each others wounds

because we know that we need to focus on our own,

even though we don’t want to.



i pray that you find peace

and i pray that i find peace.



it’s a tragedy 

and i’m sorry that i couldn’t save you

and i’m sorry that you couldn’t save me

from the devil


i want to runaway 

or never wake up again 

because i’m already dead

Thought of the week

Regardless of the pain that you feel, the sun will still rise and set.

The moon and stars will still make their appearance every night and the waves of the ocean will continue to crash. The trees will still sway in time with the breeze and the rain will continue to pour.

Life goes on, whether we like it or not and if we stay consumed in circumstance, we might just miss it.

Getting through heartbreak- the worst part

The ending of a relationship is devastating. Whether you had to walk away from a toxic situation or somebody has walked away from you, it doesn’t mean that it hurts any less. As somebody who is currently experiencing these emotions, I want to let you know that you’re not going through this on your own.

I know it feels like your heart has been ripped out of your chest. I know the sick, anxious feeling that randomly comes into your body throughout the day and smacks you round the face so you can’t think of anything else but the way that you’re feeling. I know the pit of the stomach sobbing until you can’t breathe and the anger that takes over your body. I know the constant urge to want to communicate with the other person and the brave face that you have to put on when you’re fighting back the tears. I know it feels like somebody has literally died and that you’re scared of the future.

These feelings are all okay.

Please don’t feel as if you’re being dramatic or that everybody around you is perfectly happy because there are people out there who feel exactly the same as you, and they are getting through it too. Day by day.

There is going to be a way out of this and this isn’t going to last forever. You might not realise it, but just by getting up in the morning and facing the world, you are doing amazing. Know that you will cry. A lot. I literally keep bursting into tears (embarrassing i know), but of course it’s going to hurt- don’t try to fight it. Tears are good for you. They are a release. You will also get angry but don’t let it consume you. Feel the emotion, then let it pass. Don’t try to push it away because it’ll come back 10 times stronger.

Try to distract yourself and keep yourself busy with things that you like doing, but don’t be afraid of having them days or evenings alone. Try to learn to get comfortable with your own company and being by yourself, bit by bit. Have your tears, have your anger (but don’t message your ex because it never helps anything) and give yourself time to grieve the relationship. Make the effort to see your friends and go to events, but only when you’re ready to.

Try not to dwell on ‘what if’s?’ or ‘where did it all go wrong?’, because that doesn’t matter now. What matters now is your wellbeing and your future. YOU matter. You are good enough, you are beautiful and the breakdown of a relationship does not have a reflection on you alone, so don’t be harsh on yourself. Treat yourself with care and don’t try to rush into meeting anybody new. That’s not something you need to think about yet.

Remember not to be afraid to talk about how you’re feeling as well. I know that it can sometimes feel like you might be talking too much about it, or that you don’t even know how to speak about it, but the people who love you will listen to you and communicating will eventually help you feel better. You are not a burden.

The raw first part of a break up is one of the most painful things that you will have to go through, but I genuinely believe that everything happens for a reason. Hold your head high, be brave and trust in time healing your wounds.

I want to let you know that you’re doing so well and I’m sending you so much love. Things are going to get better. Hang in there.

2019 is going to be your year!

As another year draws to a close, it’s time to ensure you go into 2019 with a bright and positive mental attitude. I know that it can sometimes feel like you’re stuck in a massive rut that you can’t get out of, but whatever your circumstances were this year, you can make 2019 better.

So, how can you do this?

Reflection – To move forward, you must first reflect. Remember every moment of 2018 that you have laughed, cried, the places that you have been to, the times you have got angry and the times you have danced. Feel every single moment. I know that it can hurt to reflect on painful or negative moments, but it’s also essential to move forward. Pain and happiness are both as important to remember, because everything teaches you something. The key is to acknowledge the painful moments and memories, but not to stay in the feeling. You have to feel the hurt, and then store it away in a safe place to remind you of your strength and character.

Dreams & Goals- Dreams and aspirations are what keep the fire inside of you burning. Grab onto the dreams that you have and use it to keep you driven. You might not be where you thought you’d be right now, whether that be in your career or personal life, but that’s okay. Just remember that you’re not stuck where you are. You can move forward and live your dream if you stay dedicated and keep faith. It will take time though, so accept that it may take longer than what you would like. Start by setting small realistic goals for yourself each week, make a list and stick to them. Once you start to see your progress, it will keep you motivated to keep going. You might have fall backs (i’m sure you did in 2018 too), but don’t give up this time. If you make a mistake or don’t complete a goal, pick yourself back up, brush yourself down and start again the next day.

Making changes-If you don’t like something, then make that change. It can be scary making a change. Sometimes you feel like it can be easier to stay in the routine that you’re in, even if it isn’t making you happy because the unknown can be daunting. This year, be brave. Make decisions that challenge you and help you grow. The first step is the hardest, but once you’ve made that step, everything else becomes easier. If people are mistreating you, don’t allow them to control your life anymore. If there is a part of your life that is making you unhappy, start making plans to get out of that place. You might be scared, but know that you can do it. Believe in yourself and respect yourself enough to make changes that will put a smile on your face.

Love yourself more-No more beating yourself up. You are amazing and you need to start believing that. Once you begin to accept yourself for who you are, you can change the world. Be confident in your skin and treat yourself with the respect that you deserve. Be kinder to yourself and ensure you have some ‘you’ time. You can’t expect to be a good person to others, if you can’t even be good to yourself. 

Maintaining positivity-Optimism opens the key to good mental health. There might be things that happen in 2019 which you don’t expect. Life has a funny way of throwing things at us when we least expect it. Don’t fight it or let it make you live in fear. Just know that you can stay optimistic and be strong through anything that is presented to you. Don’t let anything destroy you this year, even if it feels like the hardest thing you’ve ever had to do. Keep your eye on the future and remember that there is so much happiness ahead of you when the world feels like it’s caving in. Everything happens for a reason, so keep your focus on the next good thing. 

No matter what happens this year, you have the power to decide how it affects you. You have the power to change your mental health just by working on the way you view things. It’s the little things that can make a big difference.

Be mindful, be kind, be happy and most importantly this year, be brave.


Thought of the week

The media feeds us a false perception of what we should look like, and if we don’t start becoming strong enough to ignore the pressure then we will destroy ourselves with never feeling good enough. 

The images that you see on social media, on TV, or in the magazine, are not real. 

The images that make you feel shit about yourself and want to change how you look are not real.

We’re all partly to blame. We get sucked into the egotistical world of wanting to look good enough. We want to be approved by others because we can’t approve of ourselves. So we post images that don’t represent who we truly are and we make our insecurities worse by falling into the medias shitty, false, lying, manipulative hands. Fuck filters. Fuck airbrushing. 

And do you know what else isn’t real? that feeling you get when you walk past somebody and you wished you looked like them. That’s a person who feels the same as you. A person who is trying to change themselves because they don’t feel good enough. We’re so quick to hate ourselves and we’re all giving ourselves a hard time so we never have the moment to feel genuinely beautiful.

But IT’S ALL LIES. Our insecurities are telling us lies. 

The sooner we start to realise that we are fucking beautiful and enough exactly as we are, the better.

We can put our heads up and own every bit of skin that we’re in without feeling ashamed. We don’t need to change a thing about ourselves. When are we going to start realising that??